i should be working

...but i've got nothing to do. that's not entirely true, but i've completed my previous tasks and i'm not really one to go out and look for more to do. that's something i've learned about myself recently. that, if i can do something, i'll do it, and it is a nice feeling to be able to do it, but i won't try much harder to do it better or perfect my skill or add extra touches to it. if it's done it's done. it's something i don't really like but i also don't think it's problematic enough to hardcore deal with it. although when i can't do something, i'll become a little obsessive about succeeding and then i'll stop after feeling victorious for a little while. haha. for example in wii fit, there's this balance game called shalom slopes or something like that, where you have to bend left and right on the balance board in order to ski down a slope and go through each gate. for every gate you miss, your final time is increased by 7 seconds. sooo i stood there and played that game like 30 times before i got through all the gates, and afterwards i felt so good! haha. another wii fit game i struggled with was this stupid one where you live inside a bubble and you're trying to travel down a river without hitting the edges, or your bubble pops and you die. so frustrating but in the end, i won. and after i win, i turn to something new. maybe i just have a short attention span.

i've been re-reading old books. i think i grown accustom to characters and reading the books over makes me comfortable, reminding me that they're still there and i'm still here. isn't it crazy to be able to feel one's pain and happiness through words? it's a little ridiculous that they aren't even real people, but i believe that without having felt an emotion you can't write it well. so perhaps authors embody their past emotions and put it into characters they create. i wonder how much of each character is real then.. just parts of different people.

though i do need to break out of this re-reading rut soon so i can enjoy reading new books...

we're going to europe tomorrow! i've looked up a ton of eateries that i must try. i feel like i should learn more history before i go, just to appreciate things more. ah... so little time. i havent even packed.