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"I have found nothing to compare to it [...]. it felt like all that I had craved and was most afraid to lose."

I like to read because writers are able to create sentences that embody what I want to say and what I have felt into words. Gems, I call them. Phrases that I stumble upon in novels, particular song lyrics that just speak out to my soul, lines from a movie... I especially like it when they are hidden gems; that is, not meant to be particularly poignant but for some reason makes me want to hear it over and over again, or makes my eyes go backwards instead of forward on a page, or pause my sing-alongs because I just want to hear the line sang ever so purely, the way it was meant to be heard.

I miss writing. I usually write the most and the best when I'm sad and lonely, slightly heartbroken or just a bit confused with this life. But I don't really miss feeling like that. So do I really miss writing? I don't know.

Last night was the Coldplay concert. Aside from the annoying 30-something couple almost fornicating, 2 rows ahead of us, directly in my line of vision, I loved it. It's kind of inappropriate for one thing, and for another, if you are just going to grope each other the whole time just fucking blast music on your Bose sound system at home and make some babies! I get it, you're in love, but you don't have to be disgusting and indecent in public. Maybe it's dark but I guess they didn't teach you about light effects and silhouettes. Let's go back to happiness though - to me, Coldplay is/are the best act I've heard live. There's something very powerful about the entire arena singing to the same song. The energy and the connectedness make me so happy.

"Look at the stars/Look how they shine for you/And everything you do"