new year's rezzies

1. be good

the definition of good is broad and i like it that way
whether this means being a good sister/friend/daughter/citizen/worker/student etc
or it means abiding by my values and beliefs
i want to be better
i was good last year
but i can always be better
and i will

2. be committed

i had this problem with snowboarding where i wasn't able to commit to a side, or a turn, or following through on an entire turn
i think this inability speaks volumes
whether it is to a job, to a dream, to a goal, to people, to love, or to a book
it is difficult to remind oneself of these little or significant aims
and it truly takes perseverance, passion and drive to stick with it
so i'm going to commit to the things that i want, to the things that i need, and to pursuing happiness and thrill

3. grow up and get over myself

life is so much bigger and so much more than one person. the sooner we learn this the better off we will be at being good, kind, and truly people of the world. childish ideals and fantasies are nice to reminisce about, but sooner or later we must free ourselves of the restrictions we set so long ago without reason or cause, and just live the short lives we are given.

4. never stop exploring

thank you NorthFace for these three words. i think the older we get, the more comfortable we become with the way we are, with the habits and routines we create. perhaps we even strive to get into a rhythm so that every day is predictable and safe. for me, to live like that is not to live at all. everyone has different drives and desires, so i embrace those who long for security. but i am 22 years young, and i want to live like my age. i want to use the body that is almost at its peak, i want to learn and absorb new information, cultures, and tastes, i want to gather experiences that will build me into a better person. in the words of Voltaire, let us cultivate our gardens.

5. love

there are a lot of people that i love and i do try to let them know fairly often. i am happy that i do, and that they love me back, so i will continue to practice this. to love is difficult and it is also amazing when you realize that your sentiments toward another being exceeds that of simply friendship or tolerance. i love to love.