the last two weeks

have been rich, rewarding, and mostly enjoyable. I never imagined job training could be fun. It involved topics that I had always been curious about but never got a chance to learn. We got to do exercises that were challenging yet insightful. I bonded with people in my training group on profound levels.

Every morning we would gather in a circle and sit on zafus. This was the time for check in. Someone would start off and it was their time and space to say anything they wanted. I loved starting the day in this way. To clear the air and to reflect upon the day before, or the morning.

I loved sharing things about myself with people who I had just met. I loved that they felt like they could trust me with their thoughts and experiences. I enjoyed listening and learning from everyone. People have so much to offer.

On the last day, we evaluated our selves in circle and did appreciations. I cannot express enough gratitude for some of my coworkers and I am touched to my innermost core by the appreciations made to me. I hold each one in a capsule in my heart and feel a flood of emotion and empowerment upon retrieval. It felt amazing to be able to cry for other people. I've missed feeling so human.

I think I really needed these two weeks of training to strengthen my own self and explore my emotional depth. It would have been impossible without my coworkers and awesome trainer. I look forward to embarking on the next stretch of this journey.

I wish I could be more eloquent but something's wrong with me. I guess it's good to have these days once in a while to remember that I am completely unhappy being in a bad mood and it just feels outright wrong.