let everything you do be done in love

is this possible? i find it distracting to always remember to adhere to a mood or an emotion that i should be, and to take a second to register my current state before making an action. doesn't this require stepping out of the moment? is there a way to be in tune with your feelings so well that everything you do is a rational manifestation of your (positive) emotions? is there a way to be more deliberate and not come off as rehearsed or insincere?

one of my goals was to express my feelings in the moment, to let people that i love, know that i love them, and to appreciate moments in the present instead of only in retrospect. i think we could all be a lot happier if we were more open and more honest with people around us. if we opened up these channels to share our feelings about each other, then we would feel a lot more appreciated, loved, and unafraid to feel. i don't know what a life without feeling is like, but i fear that some of us restrain ourselves from experiencing these emotions that make life so meaningful.

sometimes i am afraid of sounding trite, of inappropriately inserting my in-the-now-analysis in too tactless a manner, but i have decided that i'd rather not keep these happy feelings to myself. happiness is only real when shared, says the man from into the wild. while i don't hold steadfastly to that notion, i do believe that as social human beings we ought to nurture and fortify our connections with others through the expression of happiness in any way possible- verbally, through laughter, etc.

in new york, i was riding the subway, shopping bag safely stowed between my legs, ipod on, people watching... and i realized how lonely a life it can be. despite being in a packed train amongst hundreds of people, walking briskly through the crowded streets and having way too much physical contact for comfort, i was alone.

maybe i am extra emotional right now but i have not felt so needy for human connection in a really long time. probably, the tastes of it that i get are teasing and preparing me for the most sublime.